Will You Love Me Even With My Dark Side?

when i first heard the song few months back, i was not really drawn to it..maybe because i didn't really listen to the lyrics..somehow a few days ago, when i was just "youtubing" *watching various videos in youtube randomly..lol*, i came across to the music video and only then i started to really listen to the song..& somehow it really struck me..

just about yesterday, another friend of mine told us she's getting married this week! this thursday to be exact..i know we should be really surprised by the news but actually we don't *at least i am not at all :p* cause we already know she's been engage since like last year so it was just a matter of time..& just about few days ago when we were still in Langkawi for our vacation, the love life issue came up..i mean it was not the first time..lately they've been asking the same thing for several times already..but then here i am, still without the right answer for them..but anyway if it still not right for me, how come i can make it up just to make it sounds right to the others, right?

but for sure, this song really helps me to overcome the struggles i had in me when it comes to relationship..someone once told me, it's nobody's problem that my previous relationships never really worked out, but me..i am the problem, maybe the only problem..i kept pushing people away..& i never really fight for what i wanted especially when it comes down to a relationship..i cannot make a decision for myself and far away for what needed in a relationship..& i cannot stand to people who tries to change me to whatever forms they wanted me to be..i know sometimes it is a good thing, maybe most of the time it is for a good change..it's not that i dont want to, i tried..but at some point you just know when you cannot fake yourself anymore & you just somewhat stumble upon yourself..

everybody got their own dirty little secrets..everybody got their own dark sides..i have mine..for sure it is nothing to be proud of..it is something that we mostly wanted to bury deep down inside without anyone knowing it..but for me, when it comes to relationship, it is important to not only accepting what appears upon our eyes but also what lies behind it all..of course it is hard to come upfront about yourself especially about the other side of you but it is important to let them know who you really is before they found out about it by themselves..maybe not everything should be told..but for me, the more you are being honest to yourself, the more better you feel about it..so if it would make you feel better, why don't you just spill it out? yes it is hard & it hurts but think about the bright side, in a long term situation..at least if it doesn't worked out, you wont be feeling so much guilty about yourself for being honest at least to yourself..

maybe that is what i've been waiting for all this time..i am looking for someone who can accept me not just the exterior but the interior as well..not just the bright side of me but also the dark side..it's all about accepting..& maybe i was just so afraid of rejection that makes me ended up like this..& maybe i was just so worried of being hurt cause as we all know love hurts..i mean actually not only love that hurts but any kind of relationship can be hurting at times..but i do believe in trust..with trust, relationship can grow much easier..of course when you had your trust shattered, the pain is several times worse..but at least you know the blame is not on you..trust me it feels better to know you have nothing to blame on yourself rather than having lots on your shoulder..while on the other hands, without trust, not only you will get hurt a lot not just by the others but also by yourself, it can even ruin the relationship with nothing but just by the lack of trust itself..well, lack of trust can suffocate not just you but also the others while trust actually provides you more space for a breath of a fresh air :)

so there you go, some thoughts from someone who's not even having a wonderful love life but hoping to have one..maybe a perspective from someone who has learned a lot from his previous mistakes..maybe an honest opinion from someone who would rather take time to make it right rather than just making another mistake..but anyway it is actually about the song i wanted to share..lol..so here you go..don't just hear but listen to the lyrics & you will understand what am i talking about..thats all for now..peace out :)


 

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side - Lyrics

There's a place that I know

It's not pretty there and few have ever gone

If I show it to you now

Will it make you run away

Or will you stay

Even if it hurts

Even if I try to push you out

Will you return?

And remind me who I really am

Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side

Do you love me?

Can you love mine?

Nobody's a picture perfect

But we're worth it

You know that we're worth it

Will you love me?

Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond

From black dust

It's hard to know

What can become

If you give up

So don't give up on me

Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side

Do you love me?

Can you love mine?

Nobody's a picture perfect

But we're worth it

You know that we're worth it

Will you love me?

Even with my dark side?

Don't run away

Don't run away

Just tell me that you will stay

Promise me you will stay

Don't run away

Don't run away

Just promise me you will stay

Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh

Everybody's got a dark side

Do you love me?

Can you love mine?

Nobody's a picture perfect

But we're worth it

You know that we're worth it

Will you love me?

Even with my dark side?

Don't run away

Don't run away

Don't run away

Promise you'll stay :)