Confessions Of a So-Called Teacher - "Class Control"

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT! Isn't that's the way it should be? Somehow, for me, that just didn't appear to be true..my 3rd practical training which is also the last one made me felt like i'm goin back to zero, and even worse than the 1st one..and it's all because of the class control..

no i am not about to blame the kids nor the school despite the fact it is totally different from my previous schools especially the last one which was a complete opposite..but as a teacher, we are supposed to be prepared to face any kinds of situation, or in this case - kids attitude and manners..

Confessions Of a So-Called Teacher - "P.E Class"

finally another "confessions" post since long forgotten..lol..ok this time i wanna talk about P.E class or to be exact PHYSICAL EDUCATION class..well just a brief introduction, i just started my 2nd session of my practicum..but this time its gonna be for 2 whole month instead of 1 month..& ill be teaching 2 subject instead of 1 which is my major subject, Visual Art Education, & the 2nd one is my 1st minor none other than Physical Education..

well people might typically think that i am so lucky & it is just a piece of cake to teach these two subjects but let me get this clear, IT IS NOT EASY! yes these are somewhat the easiest subject for kids i guess but teaching them, just let say it is not as easy as it looks..

Lonely

fresh from the oven *maybe not so much as this video actually debuted like last night*, latest single from 1 of my fav korean wonder, 2NE1..just love this song..maybe their 2nd ballad single which i will just keep replaying after "I Dont Care" *yea i know its not really like ballad "ballad", but i would still consider it as a ballad..lol*

dont know why, but actually this song somewhat just came out right on time when me myself felt the same way..funny huh..but no, its not the same kind of lonely as it was in this song *based on the english lyrics i found on the net..LMAO*..bt still just lonely..

this has got nothing to do with my single life, cause if so, ive been lonely for almost 5 years already huh..my gosh! cant believe its already about 5 years! @_@..but no, hell no, cause i am totally happy with my "singleness"..lol..but..right now, its just lonely..thats it..yeap i got some very good friends around here..even some who for the past days been switching off my bedroom lamp whenever i just fell asleep..huhu..yea i appreciate the existence of all you guys so much..you guys *& girls* been such a lot of favor to myself especially these days..so thank you so much to all of you..

so what really makes me feels so lonely? honestly i dont even know..& i dont even think i hate this feeling..like seriously..lol..cause tht is me..i consider myself as a lone ranger because i just felt better of alone..some experience just will change your perceptions like forever..as for me, i'd better be alone rather than getting loud with some backstabber & etc..so yeah..thats it..an honest truth..

ok lets just stop it right there & go to the song *what a long introduction huh*..heres the video with the lyrics both in korean & english below..

Mode : GARFIELD!

its SUNDAY! so..


i love Garfield so much..because im just such a lazy ass just like him..lol..unfortunately i need to do my report which to be submitted tomorrow..argh! damn much! T_T

-cypol-

Confessions Of a So-Called Teacher - "Kids!"

lets face it, kids is like the life of a teacher..why? because as a teacher u would have kids surrounding your life..but for me, honestly, I DONT LIKE KIDS! yeah it is really hurtful but its true.. its not that i hate kids but i just dont like them..get it? hate & dont like is a totally different thing ok *as for me..lol*..

as a teacher, when u enter the class, the most important thing would be CLASS CONTROL..while for someone who just doesnt like kids, i majorly failed on this aspect during some of my class..its hard for you to control the class especially with those little rascals & the fact that u just dont like them which also made it clear u will have a problem to communicate & mix with them..so yeah, there is no doubt that was the biggest problem ive been facing for the whole month..

so what did i do? heres some tips & tricks:

1. pretend like u "like" them
2. use a "gentle" approach when communicating with them
3. make up some class rules which including the "payment" they will get if they disobey
4. raise your voice as you gonna need them to take their attention

if u follow these tips & tricks, i am pretty sure u will end up in "HEAVEN" or if u didnt get what i mean, the reverse of it..i mean seriously because kids nowadays are:

1. easily spoiled
2. will get on top of u whenever they know they can
3. not scared of punishment & etc! - & i mean no kidding!
4. all about themselves..which sometimes appear to be less of respect towards people even their teachers..

yea i know those thing ive listed sounds kinda cruel & quiet a very bad judgment..but im just being real *maybe also affected by the fact that i dont like them..lol..sorry*..but honestly, that was the exact response i got when i use those approaches..

so what should we do? *maybe the best to suit is "what should i do?"..hoho*..& heres what i did next:

1. be decisive yet not too hard cos u dont wanna have a dull class with kids who seems so robotic
2. make up a tagline for the class - ill post abt this later
3. use some personal approach to those problematic kids

but wht i started love to do is:

BE FIERCE WHENEVER THEY ARE ABOUT TO TAKE ON YOU!

hahaha..how? wht kind of fierce? i guess that part u gonna have to figure out yourself..but all i can say is BE FIERCE! lol..

but still, actually it all depends on every teachers personal take on kids..everybody got their own way of handling this kinda stuff right..some approach may work for some teachers but may not work at all for some others..right? ok i guess thats all for now..c ya later..peace out

Confessions Of a So-Called Teacher - "Practical Training"

yea this is kinda funny but like seriously, i am actually a teacher-to-be *i'd prefer tht phrase over "wannabe" i guess..lol*..ok2 lets just make it short..i actually jst finished my 1st practicum session about 2 weeks ago..yea after 4 school based experience a.k.a SBE session, we finally gone to school & do the real *smewht like* teachers thing..i mean teaching & etc of course..cause during SBE we only kinda observing the environment, as what i used to do..lol

so yeah, again LETS MAKE IT SHORT! huhu..sorry..but i guess i need some more introduction to the title of this post..lalala..ok about the title..ive decided to put on this ironic title *as i may consider it* because there are actually so many things to say, to write, & to post on this new topic or maybe i should say a new side of me! *did i get that right? whatever!*..but yeah i may not be able to blurbs about everything in a post, so ive decided to divide it into several small & hot topics..& for this 1st post, it will be all about PRACTICUM and ONLY! get it?

so yeah, what is practicum? the exact definition, i guess u gonna need to refer to dictionary & etc but i would say its somewhat like on job training or the easiest way to say, practical training..but here we call it practicum or maybe it is just simply practicum..lol..(mode: stupid + lame)..

as a teacher-to-be or to be exact an ART teacher-to-be, i must say this profession is not as easy as u think..i mean seriously, u would never know how hard it is to be a "TEACHER" until u become 1..dont trust me? try to be a teacher just for a day..then you'll know

the thing i "love" the most during this practicum thing would be preparing the DAILY LESSON PLAN! like seriously, i just became from zero to..err..i can write a proper daily lesson plan..lol..for every class, i would need to plan the lesson all handwritten in the specially-designed-for-that-thing book which would be an average 5 pages..yeah! I LOVE IT SO MUCH! *get my point?*..but whatever it is, this thing called DAILY LESSON PLAN is a MUST DO for every teacher, so no excuses..

ok..next i would talk about..wait, i guess thats all for now..because..i think im done for now *is it acceptable?* so i will continue in the next post, more about practicum but in some more different view and aspect..honestly i dont even think anybody would read all this crap but here i go just like a lil stupid & innocent child *i know that doesnt sound right at all* who kept talking by himself all on his own..*already sounds so pathetic..lol*..but whatever..ive been meaning to write all this so here it goes..whatever

anyway my overall review for my 1st practicum session would be - so-so..wanna know why? wait for the next next next & next post..hahaha..& sorry that i dont have any picture frm tht practicum to attach, cos my practicum was just "pictureless"..LMAO..peace all

Im Single..so..What The Hell?! lol XD

ive been listening to this song since i got it from Avril's facebook fan page *i mean from tht 48hours free download promo;p*..but seriously ive never really listen 2 e lyrics, untill e official video was released around last week..wow..damn i love this song so so much!!! i mean e lyrics, thts really somethin i can relate to..LMAO XD



well, seriously, i mean, its alrdy like becomin e golden question 4 me, e most popular 1; "do u hve a girlfriend?"..well, sorry 2 say, but my answer will still be "NOPE"..haha..its not tht i dnt want 2..its jst, not yet, not now, not even soon..maybe later..hoho

but why? i guess im jst not into it..lol..i mean, its not like ive been completely single *ops;p* 4 e past 4 years..yes u heard me right - its been 4 years alrdy ..haha *n somehow i jst felt kinda good abt it @_@..huhu*..there was some brief relationship, like a month or two..but thts it - jst a brief relationship..not even considered a real relationship i guess..& i guess from those whtever it is, i kinda figure out tht this "LOVE" thing is totally not 4 me..yet..myb someday..when i can give much more commitment - which im so not interested right now..huhu

when i really listen 2 this song, it jst gave me a much more clear view of wht it would be if it happen 2 me right now, pretty much alike, i mean minus those making out & dates thing..haha..so 4 e sake of myself, id better go solo, rite? haha..so thts it!! no more single or not question please!!!

ok enough with my stat..lets talk abt e singer instead..AVRIL LAVIGNE..my gosh i love her so damn much!!! 2 b honest, 1 of my 1st ever cassete @ radio tape *b4 this cd & mp3 thing took place*, was Avril Lavigne's debut album - Let Go *e other 1 was Linkin Park Meteora which both i bought @ e same day*..& i still got them back @ home:)

she did changed a lot which clearly reflected into her albums *i got them all;p*..& personally, i think she has changed into a better her - & appropriate 4 her age wht..i mean, yes there r some who jst keep sayin tht they miss e "old" avril - e 1 tht they used 2 hear..but come on, do u really wanna hear e same sounds from her even when shes clearly not tht teenage girl no more? & 4 some who jst grown up listening 2 her *like me*, its really good when e flavor she brought in jst pretty much relatable 2 ourselves:)



as she says tht in her upcomin album Goodbye Lullaby, its gonna b a departure from wht she used to do, & tht e rest of e songs r nothin much like this 1st single which pretty much still like another "Avril doin her thang" song..i am so lookin forward for it..so all e best 2 Avril..ill leave u guys with e official video & e lyrics of her much talked latest single What The Hell..peace ^_^



WHAT THE HELL - AVRIL LAVIGNE

You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...
La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

p/s: e chorus is jst e best it can be..hoho..u rock girl:)

-cipol-

Sorry..

this post specially dedicated to my bestbuddy best jay=)...

i know its been a very hard time esp 4 u tht we havent contacted 4 so long..& i havent wrote @ updated this blog 4 a while..so im really sorry..yeah i know ive never been a really good friend lately..i dunno wht more i cn say, but sorry:(



btw, im alrdy back home @ sabah r8 now (arrived here on last saturday - its been a week alrdy)..& yup the connection here is damn worst thn i can tell since my dad jst canceled the application 4 streamyx & i hve 2 use my broadband usin gprs connection (no more further comment)..& things jst gettin really busy around since my sist will be married on next weekend, with my newly wed bro (who jst got married last october in Penang) will also have their wedding reception here on the same exact day..

abt my final exam, i would say, i suck..hoho..dunno y, i jst felt so..& i dunno wether u alrdy have ur final @ not :(..sorry best.. bt if u havent yet, jst want u 2 know tht i always wish 4 the very best of luck 4 u best..& god bless u..

i guess thts all 4 now..jst really tired & sleepy r8 now..gt some more work 2 do tomorow..& again i am really sorry 4 everything..hope eveythings gonna b fine with u..peace

C Ya Later Penang!!! & Hello Again Sabah...

i will never say good bye 4 sure..but im gonna miss tht place so much @ actually gonna miss my big bro so much..i had a great time stayin there & the most important part is, i got to spend a lot of time with my big bro..somehow he made me feel so damn lucky 2 have him as my bro, he gave me shelter & he accompany me, or else ive nowhere to go..huhu

this place feels a lot more like home

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to be honest, im so happy tht ive finished my SBE today, but dont kinda feels like celebrating it cos its also a mark of my last day in penang..but 4 sure ill b back 2 make a lot more trouble there again..haha..& jst now, im already in the departure hall on LCCT..somehow i dont feel like goin..T_T

jst sittin in the departure hall

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my flight should be on 7.30pm, but jst this morning when im in the bus from butterworth to KL, i got a text message from Air Asia tht my flight jst been RETIMED to 9.05pm..OMG!!! so ill b arrive at KK around 11.55pm something..& my parents (my dad) already started yelling at me as its my fault tht the flight got postponed..T_T.. well tomorrow is the 1st day of Ramadhan..hmm

the departure hall..empty huh..hoho

so now, its only 6.40pm & im jst sittin here in the departure hall, online , writing in this blog & jst playin some games..huhu.. 4 sure, 2 my big bro, i promise tht ill spend a day @ two fasting with u during this Ramadhan..thts my word=)peace..

Souvenirs From Australia...

Friday: when i was already sittin here on my desk with nothin but my towel (lol..*blushing*..), suddenly i got an emergency call from my big bro zack..he's already here at our college main gate!!! OMG!!! yea he's already back from Australia & already been here 4 abt a week..but he never told me tht he's gonna do a surprise visit (as it is really surprisingly) & i dnt evn expected it..huhu..so without wastin more time, i jst grab my clothes & get 2 the main gate asap..

& there u go..my beloved big bro walkin to the main gate as he saw me arrived there..& wht else but a massive hug..finally!!! & i was just so speechless..he said he just stopping by to give these souvenirs he got 4 me from Australia (evnthough ive already told him not to - since ive owed him so much already *money*)..while he's actually on his way to Malacca..& these are the stuff..

souvenirs..

a cute multi-purpose koala..lol

souvenir plate with stand

souvenir magnet

Australian lifeguard t-shirt..^_^
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i love all of them..but the best souvenir of all actually my big bro himself..lol..hey he got to bring himself back to Malaysia safely what!!! & the best part is, yesterday i got to spend a day with him, accompanying him shopping 4 some stuff (he'll be back workin by next week..hoho)

somehow i felt like the time move too fast & the day felt damn short..but hey, he made my day!!! somehow he made me forget all this pain ive to face & reminds me how to enjoy myself again instead of just fakin it..thanks a lot bro!!!..huhu..& now he still dunno where he'll be posted..just praying all the best for him..may Allah bless him..i love u bro..& u r my big bro, then, now, & forever, for good..peace

I wanna run with the WILD HORSES..~

one more fav song of mine..lol..& u know wht, this song really means a lot 2 me..wargh!!!i wish i can run with the wild horses @ jst take a ride @ maybe jst run like them - becme a part of them?lol..whtever..jst wanna run with the wild horses..wuuuhuuu~

Wild Horses - Natasha Bedingfield - By Me

nothin much 2 say..jst..go read the lyrics if u wanna know why this song means a lot 2 me..wawawa..T_T..who to dedicate? specially 2 myself..argh!!!huhu..whtsoever..jst enjoy..peace..

click here to watch Natasha's live performance of this song + lyrics

Please..STOP judging me..

do u know wht hurt me most? being judge..i hate it & will never like it..u cn criticise me bt pls dont evr judge me..

the only reason i felt much better of alone is so i wont have 2 bear much abt any1 else, jst watch out my own bussines & dnt hve anybody be my mirror which reflects more thn i need..im sorry..no offense bt seriously i dont mind if anybody would call me anti-social since evn my mom called me so..still doesnt mean i love being alone..i hate it..sometimes i even hated myself 4 being this pathetic jerk..im still a human being ok..still want 2 care & be cared, 2 love & be loved..

i love being accompanied..by those who cn accept me as i am..whether the good or bad side of me..not by those who jst pretend like they can accept my dark side bt actually they dont..pls jst b true 2 urself..i know im not tht good (4 sure im not evn a good person)..so if u jst cant accept me, jst say it..jst gt the hell out from my life (im sorry 4 the words - bt i jst cant find any better words 2 express myself right now)..its not tht i dont wanna change..i am tryin my best ok..ur not in my place so dont ever said tht u know how do i feel @ u do understand my situation right now..

i know once uve done somethin bad, forever people will remember it, bt once u did good things, only few will lasts - still by chance..yea maybe i jst deserve it..thanks a lot by the way..now my holiday mood jst totally ruined by all this shit..

do u know why i love my BEST - Jay so much?! bcos evn the fact tht we've never met in reality - not even close, but he has been the most understanding person ever who can accept me as I am..some says FRIENDS ARE ABOUT GIVE AND TAKE, bt how many of us really do hold on tht principe in our friendship?

4 those whoever felt like i dedicate this to, thanks a lot 4 the friendship so much..i really do "appreciate" it..y dont u jst kill me huh?argh!!!wht a shitty day..n

1 more paper down, 1 more paper left to go..waaaa..^_^..

i am so heppii2 yeayeaaa (its ma own vocab - 2 express myself - pls pronounce it "rightly" - another vocab? lol)..today i jst done with 1 more paper - which means i only gt 1 more paper left..waaaaa!!!i am so excited lorh..wuwuwu..

anyway, i think i also did pretty well in this paper (Introduction to Visual Art Education) - finally!!! its not tht i felt great with my answers (since i still jst been the same - jst doin it in my own way - the answers..lol), bt i jst felt way much better compared 2 my past papers..hoho..thanks 2 my beloved friends / classmates who are so generous 2 share their notes (they even photostated those notes & give them 2 us as somewhat like spread flyers..lol)..seriously i didnt read anythin (especially books) except their notes..waaa..i am so thankful 2 have u guys (evnthough all these "guys" who've been sharing their notes are girls - the boys only accepting lorh..haha..) as my friends..ngee=p

notes from the girls..hehe..thanks so much..it really helps me=)

so, wht more to say?nothin much..just pls wish me luck 4 my last paper tommorow (Visual Language Comparison) - hoping tht ill gt through it way much better than todays' paper - maybe another notes from my friends?lol..thts gonna b great..ngee=p..peace..

(in my mind - holidae!!!holidae!!!holidae!!!weeeeeee..^_^..)

-cypol-

Wargh!!! Im sorry!!! I didnt mean to!!!

OMG!!! now i really do felt so guilty..abt my earlier post - the hungwyyy one, im just sharing - not askin 4 any help..especially financially..pls dont get me wrong..

just a minute ago, my big bro zack - who jst currently read tht post, offered to help me..but bro, im really sorry, i just cannot accept it..its not tht i dont want to, bt i just cant..im sorry..cos this is all by myself, its all my fault..i shouldve save more, & spend my money wisely, bt i jst dont..so i do deserve this..so im really sorry tht i cant accept it..

i jst wanna take this as a payment 2 myself..let me learn from my mistake..its not tht i dont want u 2 help me, i am begging u to help me, bt not financially!!! thts jst not the right way (in my own thoughts)..btw i still think i can survive (with wht i had left)..i dnt evn ask money from my parents, so how come i can accept urs?no pls no..dont force me to..i jst cant & i dont even deserve it..

dont worry, its nt tht much bt i still can survive..

bro zack, u do have a really big heart, & i really do appreciate it..bt pls..i hope u understand my situation..uve been really nice to me..thanks a lot..bt pls let me through this once by my own..im sorry..tq

-cypol-

Hungwyyyyyy..T_T..

im hungwy!!!!& its been couple of days i havent took my lunch (i do bt just a light 1..uwaaa..T_T)..today, again im back to my pathetic lunch meal - a glass of milk + biscuits..

milk is all i need - to be true - all i still have..T_T

now i only gt MYR45.46 left in my bank account..what?!am I serious?yea..sadly, i am serious..while in my wallet just left abt MYR47..& all this should b covering my budget till next semester..argh!!!..maybe i should start counting my coins after this..argh..i am so poor..wuhuhu..

chipsmore..i love u..bt i cant even finish the whole pack..

evnthough i wnt to bt i jst cant - hve 2 keep some 4 another days..T_T

my terrible financial status left me here starving 4 food - i can only have a meal (i mean a real 1) once a day, if not ill b so damn broke (eventhough i am already..huhu)..waa holiday!!!i need holiday asap..so i can finish my friends food stock at his home (since im not goin back home)..lol..wht a bad thought..-_-"

wht make it worst, this is so gonna led me to weight loss & i am so avoiding it..argh!!! ..T_T..shame on me..

-cypol-

Exam @ Holidae?!

wargh!!! i still gt 2 more paper to go..bt all i cn think of r8 now is just holidaeeee..wuwuwu..OMG i cant believe i jst bcame this desperate 4 holiday..lol..i cant even think abt the exam no more..wuhuhu..

just a snap ..lol

i still gt both visual art paper left - Introduction to Visual Art Education & Visual Language Comparison, which both ive no idea wht to read..its nt tht i dnt know, (we do gt spotted Q from our lecturer) bt most of those spotted Q just totally way beyond the topic which we have lectured (i guess - since i dnt evn pay much attention in class..wargh!!!)..i am damn confused!!! bt whtsoever..i dnt evn in mood 2 study..lol..(wht up with me?oh my..god pls help me *crossing fingers*)

the spotted Q's..hmm..

jst now, im just listening 2 music, singing my heart out & sometimes just shakin up my bon bon instead..lol..waaaaa=p..& my fav song jst r8 now is Turn Your Lights Down Low - Megan Joy version..lol..tht song jst kinda calm me down..hoho..

-cypol-

Im In Trouble!!! Wargh!!!

hey dont just do tht poker face!!gt ur ass up & do ur revision!!

waa..ive no idea whts gonna happen to me after this (particularly this sem)..im just so troubled right now!!! i just done with my Philosphy of Education paper & i totally just blew it up!!argh..waaa..nothing to regret no more..i just suck!!actually i did gt some spotted question from my friend (which actually some of them really came out) bt i did no good with my revision..@ lets just say i was just foolin myself around instead..shame on me..T_T..

example of my note during 1 of my lecture..lol..gooood boy=p

(p/s; this is during my Children Development lecture!!!oh my)

tomorow i gt another tough paper - Children Development - which im so not into..huhu..& evn after wht had happen this evening, im still not into the mood 2 study..lol..wht the heck is goin with me?OMG..i hope ill get my "hardworkin spirit" tonight so i can study (pls cypol!!!u can do it!!!) for tomorow paper..lol..i felt like psycho writin like this right now..haha..whtsoever..just dunno wht more to do..lol..pls anybody!!pray 4 me so i can study & do my best 4 this exam..T_T..thanks..peace..

Wild Horses..

WILD HORSES - NATASHA BEDINGFIELD

I feel these 4 walls closing in
My face up against the glass
Im looking out... hmm
Is this my life im wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
Its greener pastures i'm thinking about hmm
Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, I feel scared

Wild horses I want to be like u
Though we caution to the wind
I run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like im longing too
Run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
Ohh yeaaa yea

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare back, care free alone
For sure
If only that someone was me
Jumpin head first headlong with out a fall
To act and tear the consequence
I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break freee ee yeah ohh

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, I feel scared
Hoohhh woah woah

Wild horses I want to be like u
Though we caution to the wind
I run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like im longing too
I run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
Ohh yeaaa yea

I wanna run too.
Hohhh woah oh woah oh

Breaklessly im ......... My self b4 u

I wanna open my heart tell him how I feel

Wild horses I want to be like u
Though we caution to the wind
I run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like im longing too
I run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses! [X2]
Hooaah woah ohh woah
Yeeaaaah

I wanna run with the wild horses

dunno y..these days i jst wanna hear this song..its been 1 of my fav song of all time..its from her album Unwritten..its been awhile i havent heard this song bt jst suddenly dunno y, this song jst appear in my mind and contuniously played in my head..maybe it jst express my exact feelin right now..wuwuwuwu..

1 more paper down..wawawa!!!

bittersweet smile from this miserable dude..hoho

(just after done with my paper..haha)

i just done with 1 more paper & u know wht, i felt happy-sad like emotion..hoho..so happy tht 1 more paper down but pretty sad cos most of the time i dont evn know wht my answer was..haha..argh!!! i felt like my mind gonna blow jst abt in a sec..hoho..bt whtsoever..i am so dnt hve any intention 2 do very well 4 this exam..its nt i dont want to, bt i jst cant..my mind..i jst cant think bout study no more..all ive been thinking these days is just holiday..oh my..cant wait 4 the sem break..huhu..

maybe its jst consequences by my personal problems..dont wanna talk about it..a fake smile can tell thousands of story (bt of cos only if u manage 2 diffrentiate the fake 1..lol)..& these days i dnt know y im just so addicted 2 "Thinking Of You" by Katy Perry..i listen 2 tht track all over again by days..i guess its been 3 days already ive been listening 2 tht song day & night..haha..only jst now i added some more tracks (kelly clarkson's songs from her latest album - all i ever wanted) into my playlist..& just now im listening to "I Want You"..haha..is there somethin wrong with me..lol=p

whtsoever..bt i am still hoping 4 a brand new brighter day 4 me maybe tomorow..hoho..can only wish for..omg..waa..sounds so pathetic huh..hoho..whtever..

sorry1000x..

me recently..playin with my hairstyle..lol=p

hoho..its been so long since my last post & i am really sorry tht i didnt got a chance 2 update this blog..huhu..ive been thinking bout renovating it but finally i think 4 now id better jst keep it this way..hoho..

theres so much things i wanna post here but due 2 my condition right now (busy as hell!!!) i just cant..im really sorry..im in study week right now..exam week is on the line as 1 paper down, 1 more paper by tomorow evening (plsss wish me the very best of luck since i didnt read anythin yet..wargh!!!) & 4 more paper on the go..hoho..

about me, nothin much so important to tell as my recent update (theres a lot but nothin so important)..maybe theres one thing but i guess ive told my best already bout this which is, finally i decided 2 go single & didnt wanna think about any girlfriend 4 now..lol..just so tired & no time for love..sorry girls=p

other than tht, just a million of apologize 2 my best as ive been keeping quiet 4 so long..i am so sorry best..but no, u will always b my bestfriend & pls never have any doubt abt tht k..

& i love ur new pic..lol^_^

my best as the guitar man..hehe..so ill b the vocalist then..haha

i guess thts all 4 now..till we meet on the next post (jst pray 4 my free time...lol)..peace=)